Is God calling me to move?

The scenario behind this question is that the listener feels a strong restlessness to leave her family (not her husband), home, and job to follow Jesus in another state. However, she is unsure whether this desire to move is from God or her.

Here is a paraphrase of the question …

How do we recognize whether a desire is our own or a desire from God? A year ago, I felt this strong restlessness and a sort of calling to leave my family, leave my home, and leave my job and to follow Jesus. I took that literally and felt a strong desire to move out of state. My husband and I are young with no kids so I felt that we were in the perfect condition to do so.

We dug our ditches to prepare for God’s blessing because I felt so strongly that He was calling us to go to Colorado, but my husband never did quite feel the same calling. Months went by and I ended up in a bad emotional place because my desire never did come to fruition.

It’s been a year since I first had the strong desire and restlessness that I felt. I’ve been very confused with whether or not this desire to move to is my OWN desire or if God really did plant it in my heart.

Just recently, I listened to a podcast of yours concerning identifying God’s calling for our lives, those emotions resurfaced. It’s almost like a longing and a sense of sadness that I’m not there. I feel homesick for somewhere I’ve never lived.

I have no sense of direction on why God would want us to go there, but I do know when my husband and I talk about it, he wants to be on board for moving out of state someday but he admits to having a lot of fear associated with it. It’s not that I am not fearful, but I can see these images in my mind of me spending time alone with God in the mountains and that image has been burnt into my mind. And that image brings me peace.

So with that bit of backstory and knowing that God laid the verses Matthew 19:29 and Revelations 3:8 on my heart and the song “Where He leads me I will follow,” could you provide me insight on how to further look into myself and determine whether or not God is calling me to go or if it is my own desire to go? Could the restlessness and unsettledness be discontentment?

Matthew 19:29 NIV

[29] And everyone who has left houses or brothers or sisters or father or mother or wife[a] or children or fields for my sake will receive a hundred times as much and will inherit eternal life.

Revelation 3:8 NIV

[8] I know your deeds. See, I have placed before you an open door that no one can shut. I know that you have little strength, yet you have kept my word and have not denied my name.

Genesis 12:1 NIV

[12] The Lord had said to Abram, “Go from your country, your people and your father’s household to the land I will show you.

Psalm 37:4 KJV

[4] Delight thyself also in the Lord: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart.

1 Corinthians 14:33 KJV

[33] For God is not the author of confusion, but of peace, as in all churches of the saints.